i really miss her so much.... this days.. we're falling apart... though we're still holding each others hands fighting for our relationship... thats why i wanted to be with her tomorrow.. so that at least i can feel her embrace once again...

She wants us to go somewhere, where there's nothing there but us.. the sky.. trees, flowers, grass... birds singing while we lie down together looking at the sky... a paradise you could say.. naiintindihan ko naman kung ano gusto nya.. kxe khit ako gnun din ang gusto ko.. kung may mahahanap naman ako, dadalhin ko sya dun eh... pero the problem is.. wala pa akong nahahanap.... or maybe thats not the problem at all... maybe its me.... this whole thing started because of me... the stupidity of myself... i made her cry this past few days... i even said terrible things to her... things that i could never imagine that i could say...and that made me really sad for a whole week... that feels like an eternity.. and i know that she felt the same... or even worse...

i dont know... i just want to hug her real tight... i want her to cry at my shoulders to let out the burden... even the skies are crying... its been raining here ever since that incident happened...

i just want to be with her.. coz being with her.. is more than being on "that" paradise...
just... being with my jhelai.... thats all that matters to me now....
i love her.... so much...